Desire

So 4am and I'm up. Not really able to sleep as 1, worried I will sleep in and be late to the airport :p and 2, God just wants me to chat with Him :).
Although He hasn't placed what I'm feeling there I'm beginning to realise (whether correctly of falsely!) that the only thing keeping me here in Melbourne is Him. I was beginning to think there were some other reasons but no, wrong again. I desperately try and guard myself and then I get to a point where I think, no time to trust others & let them into my world ... and then BANG! I seem to get hurt all over again.
The key here, obviously not choosing my friends correctly & not listening to God to whom I should really trust. Hmm, well life is a learning curve so back to the classroom to learn more about Him and about myself! xx