So, really, yesterday was not one of my better days. It seems that if I let things build up, seeing a group of people turns me into a nut case??!!!!!
Heading to dinner after church yesterday and by the time I arrived at the place, I seriously couldn't cope with being around everyone so I pretty much got there, said hi, then goodbye and then left ... I think everyone was like ... WHAT THE???? Totally weird and I felt really bad but I really just couldn't do it?!
Being Christmas and my birthday not that far away, for some reason, all these little triggers over the weekend made me really miss my dad. Although it has been nearly 13 years since he died, I suppose when you're only 18, it's not something that you tend to brush under the carpet. Saying that, I have dealt with it, but it's more just the fact that I know he's not around anymore and that I can't share with him what is going on in my life ... the good, the bad and the frustrating!!!
I have an awesome church family and they're great but for some reason, it just wasn't enough last night so I just had to have me and God time. It was a good chance just to sit and let Him wrap His arms of peace around me, I felt so much better for it!! I ended up driving to Williamstown and just looking over across at Melbourne, rather therapeutic I must admit, and truthfully, Melbourne isn't such a bad city to look at over the river at night.
One thing that has alarmingly stood out to me is that I shouldn't be waiting until everything builds up before spending that special time with God. He wants to spend time like that whenever ... will aim to do that a little more (well a lot more) from now on!
God has truly blessed me and I'm so very thankful =)
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